Why?!
Is it my house? Is it my intense dust mite allergy?
Or my ridiculous colophony allergy?
Or is it my high work stress?
Is it because I got stuck at an airport hotel a few nights ago without my checked luggage, which ironically held my packed dust mite allergy mattress/pillow covers?
Whatever it is, I don’t even care at this point. It’s impossible to avoid my dust mites and colophony allergens. I remember the good ol’ days where I was just worried about my fragrance allergy. That’s such an easy one at this point.
I can’t live in a bubble and I can’t throw enough money at these allergies.
My flare up is bad right now. My arm flare up started weeping today during my work zoom call with a vendor. And it’s spreading. I’m feeling it start on my right thigh, spreading on my neck, starting on my left arm, and, damnit, my face is getting itchy. It’s going to be a bad one. It’s already a bad one. And I can’t pump enough antihistamines into me to stop it (within the recommended limit).
I need to talk to an allergist again. Maybe it’s time to get on real meds again. (NOT topical steroids or protopic/tacrolimus!)
Today, I feel defeated by my ridiculous skin allergies that trigger my eczema flare ups. Tomorrow is a new day, and will probably involve my finding a new allergist (since moving to a new city last year). Tomorrow is a new day. But tonight, I pout.